Thursday, February 9, 2012

One sonnet and one almost sonnet

A Sonnet in Memory of Small Wings

of black wings settled live on her shoulder,

of memory dark with the night of all

unlived,

I sing a requiem. Tears fall

as some sunsets never do. I saw her

pass by on her little

clouded feet, ev’n

talked, quickly - violently fell, unfurling

voraciously dove into eyes of

burning

copper, alive with a mercy, to leave

my heart un-emptied. To leave me stay whole,

from blooded feet, floundering

a thousand

frozen miles over mountains maw - respite

from the red impaling crush of a soul

Sinking in, sucking bone,

like light

like sand

Into a supernova.

What light! What light!

Part 2, sort of a sonnet.

What tearing joy to be rent asunder

by beautiful passions and noble

Deaths! Oh,

what faulted, perfect love it is

To live! She smiled to me – against my tender

Cheek where I burn deeper than scars recall,

And I blinked, heard her ruffled feathers flutt’r,

Shuttered

to fall, to stir anew and dance

Themselves,

to laugh and weep the way pearls do,

So quiet and blue.

I , grounded albatross

Of broken porcelain pieces, I lay

Blinded, did pray for flight forsaken

, know

She has gone and I have not pained not died

Or lived.

For such un-birthed sorrows of her

Cruel un-colored sort of mercy, I sing.

onederland

A CATTERPILLAR WITH TATTOOED TEETH

IN A LAND WITH LIGHT THAT SLIDES ALIVE AND BLUE

AND MEN GRINNING BACKWARDS,

I DRANK TEA MADE FROM MUSHROOMS, HEARD FLOWER AND LEAF

LAUGH AT ME LOUD AS FLUTES AS I SHRANK AND GREW

I, THE MAN GRINNING AND BACKWARDS.

IN THE TULGEY WOOD I STOOD UFFISH AND CHOKED ON WORDS

SPAT LIKE SMOKE FROM WHERE, LIKE STONE BESTREW

A CAT, A PILLAR TATTOOED, TEETH

SHARP AND GOLD AS A DREAM BENEATH

A MEMORY.

WHO ARE YOU?

- I AM ME. ,CONTRARIWISE WHO

ARENT YOU?

NOT HARDLY WHO I WAS. NOW A MAN GREIVING BACKWARDS.

THE HARE’S OFF IT’S HEAD WITH CURSED RABBIT’S LUCK,

DODO BIRDS

ARE BURBLING AND HYPNOTISING, GIVING PILLS THAT DON’T DO, DON’T DO

SO THE CAT – I ATE A CATERPILLAR WITH THESE TATTOED TEETH

AND THE WAKEFULL KUEEN CALLS BETWEEN RED TEETH

OFF WITH THIS FLOATING HEAD,THIS

THIS CATERPILLAR WITH TATTERED TEETH

THIS MAN GRINNING BACKWARDS

Friday, November 25, 2011

I Hope You Read This (My Sister's Journal)

I have written this


Over your notes.
A created image I've conjured.
I hold creased memories,
Soiled without your presence.
A face, a figure,
Someone I never fully knew,
Nor will I fully
Understand.

Through the aged rubble
Of your possessions,
I question:
Who are you?
How can I even know
or at least acknowledge
your existence if
I've never seen your true face.

I realize the intensity.
You live on worn backs and tempered souls.
Finding any reasonable explanation,
Or even just a note
Is impossible.

Peering into
Pages of your mind,
I philosophize on life.

Maybe we never really know
Who we are
Or who we will be.

Maybe,
Everyday of our
Meaningless existence
We seek truth, Answers.
For nothing.

Maybe,
Doing what we love is
All the solace
This world
Can ever
Offer us.

Maybe,
I never knew you because
I tried to embody
A memory.

A phantom in reflections
Whom I've never known.
Would I be let down?
To know your stories,
Forming truths within
Untwisted tongues.

Would we be closer
Or more distanced in Space?

Perhaps,
In time,
We can take down our
Masks
To really know
What is inside.

Shipwreck

I lay stagnant
As the sands spill over me.
Waves crash against my face.

A savior.
My sails gently set adrift by the
Touch of the wind.
The boat rocks
But I am still.
The warm lips of the sun
Caress
Every inch of my body.
But I am cold.

Longing, Waiting.
I'll never know
How long I've been away.
How far from shore am I?

Pointless to search.
Pointless to answer.

My oars were taken away.
Stolen.
Yet I will remain,
Stagnant
As the shoreline beckons me
Onwards.

But I cannot answer the call.

Speechless, in ruin.
I may never sail again
But I still dream
Of distant soils
To burry my feet.

But a part of this ocean
Calls me further away.
I can escape,
But from what am I escaping?
Where is home
If this is all I've ever known.

I may never find a home
Between sand and tides.
But I will continue
My search
If it takes my whole life.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Everglades (working title)

This land is amorphous.
a cruel paradox
of old shadow.

- the brave
effort of geography
to remember things
ancient lost.

always a memory.
never, it feels,
alive independent.

Now coffin nail trees
groan
like some belly of a whale,
cast
in obsidian breath,
dark still,
until its burning hour.
some vengeful lights
traveled. turned
over ,
, over.

There are dreams, here.
violent and weird.
bleeding
inconstant
as the land
and sort-of-land
and not-quite-land, here -

- ready always to accept
that easy suggestive stroke
of quick hurricane shift,
upside down
and thunder eyed.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Worn

Venomous words leak
Overflowing a numbed conscience.
Flower petals fall
Leaving only camouflaged thorns.

She sit and stirs,
A thick mud of tears.
She awakens
As the smoke billows
Out of his vacant mouth.
Stains on her apron.

His calloused fingertips
Leave behind larger scars
In need of more than
A stitch or kiss.

Those calloused fingertips
Push button squares
Through threaded gaps
Over the heart
That pounds through
A Pill-covered green vest
In a civil masquerade.

High society dons
Fake smiles in darkened alley ways.
The pain could fill buckets
In nails and shrapnel;
All waiting for a fuze.


As the evening's ballroom dancer,
She puts on her gowns and coverup.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

For Rachael


Risen out
of most frigid hell
stand I,
tattered naked
black
in the eyes,
absent of much soul
in them.

Death white
and
claw toothed
I killed my way
free
of the falling green
acidic storm.

Exhausted,
crushed empty
as I forced
open
a wall of fearful distortion,
my body
melting, now
through any
sense
of logical light,
burning dark
tepid breath,
I -
I am through.

numb
in presence of proof
that a beating heart
was just a fairy tale
to me,
smiling little girl,
hoping, stupid thing.

at least there is magic
in a mundane end.